Letter to myself

Dear Bing,

You can do it. You can get through the next few weeks, dancing on your toes through the obstacles with aplomb. As for slacking off over vacation, hey, it's your own problem. You've realized that. But you're good at getting yourself out of situations like this.

Without a doubt, you are going to barge into next week with your shining awesome rough draft (without the info from the books, as discussed). Then, you are going to violently beast the AP Calc AB exam, because, girl, you know the material! You know the darn material! This is the stuff that you've been feeling good about allllllll year. This is the stuff that has made you say without hesitation that you like math now. This is the stuff that's done visually, and you're a visual person.

Over the course of next week, you will study water for Enviro like it's no effing tomorrow. You love water. You're a water sign. The stuff is interesting. And besides, the list of stuff you need to know is just a little more than that green packet/book, which you have (and defaced...sorry Willie). You will also be working on your paper, but as it will have become Shiny in status by early next week, you'll be fine. The books will come and you will [verb] that paper in the [noun].

AP Chem study will be a breeze. Look through your notes, skim through the book, do a few practice problems, voila. You got this in the bag.

Then next-next week, it's the light at the end of the tunnel, girl! You pass in your brilliant, brilliaaaannntt paper on Monday, all complete and stuff (with some time to make tweakings later on, I expect) and continue studying for Enviro. You will pwn AP Chem so hard, so effing hard, it will not have known what was coming.

Then the next day, you will pwn Enviro. But longer and harder (the pwning, not the getting pwned. There will be no getting pwned here.)

AND ON THE 14TH, IT'S OFF TO NATS, BABY! And you'll get plenty of time to work on your presentation. You're not presenting for a while. Add a few chapters to your book, girl, you deserve it.

Remember: You wanted to do Senior Year Project. This is what you set out to do. And heck, you've had harder weeks than this. As for your graduation hanging in the line thing, well, you'll be fine. You'll come out of these next two weeks a stronger and more mature person than you are right now, because you'll be improving as we go.

Meaning, the days will get easier as you make it through them.

You want to be a writer. You want this. You want it bad, soooooo bad. You know your novel is good; you've spent a good long time with the plot, setting, characters, theme, time period...you've let its very essence seep into you and you took this essence and boiled it down and (crapped it out) made a better draft than before.

Don't you doubt yourself. You won't get through these two weeks if you do.


As love and support approaches infinity,
Bing